Bedtime Routine

This happens every night when we get Cooper situated for bed.   We get his PJ's on and make sure he went to the bathroom. Craig does his thing then I do mine.   I give Cooper a kiss, usually on his forehead or cheek.  He's normally sitting on the floor, playing with the Warner Bros. Pictures "WB" Logo.  He loves that logo.  He carries it around with him almost all of the time

So there he is, sitting on the floor eye stimming and humming the Warner Brothers Pictures theme song to himself.  I tell him it's time for bed and he tells me he wants to do it one more time.

I tell him, "I love you."
"See you in the morning," he says, looking at the logo.
"I love you," I say again.
"See you in the morning," he says, looking at the logo.
I'm thinking third times a charm...
"I love you, Cooper."
He quickly glanced up at me.
"I love you too, Mommy."

I don't get that every night.  But man... when I do...   my heart is happy.   <3

Quick, WIW a day late :)

2009- 173
Last week- 171
this week- 167.5

3.5 lbs is good!  Some water weight in that loss I'm sure, but it'all good.  :)

My mantra is to be conscious about my eating and remind myself to make good choices.  Nothing crazy going on here.  I'm trying to change my life, not start another fad diet.

Baby, I'm back

Hi, hello....

My name is Mandy and I have issues with food.  Well, I have other issues that I take out on food.  It's a dirty cycle.  I got lost and I lost hope.  I had a shitty month, but baby, I'm back.

I'm back carrying the weight I lost.  It sucks, but I'm ok with it.  It was a learning experience.  I should have learned from it the other times I have yo-yo'd this weight around, but yah... I learned from it.  My pants learned from it.  So have the buttons on my shirt.

I'll officially weight in next week, with the weight I've lost this week.  That will give me something positive to build upon.

Bob Harper of The Biggest Loser fame said it best, "Stand up and finish what you started!"

It's life or something like it

http://lovethatmax.blogspot.com/2010/05/top-20-reasons-moms-of-kids-with.html

What I'm about to share is from the blog above.  It brought tears to my eyes because it's true.  Every word.

Top 20 Reasons Moms of Kids With Special Needs ROCK

1. Because we never thought that “doing it all” would mean doing this much. But we do it all, and then some.
2. Because we’ve discovered patience we never knew we had.
3. Because we are willing to do something 10 times, 100 times, 1,000 times if that’s what it takes for our kids to learn something new.
4. Because we have heard doctors tell us the worst, and we've refused to believe them. TAKE THAT, nay-saying doctors of the world.
5. Because we have bad days and breakdowns and bawl-fests, and then we pick ourselves up and keep right on going.
6. Because we gracefully handle the stares, the comments, the rude remarks. Well, mostly gracefully.
7. Because we manage to get ourselves together and get out the door looking pretty damn good. Heck, we even make sweatpants look good.
8. Because we are strong. Man, are we strong. Who knew we could be this strong?
9. Because we aren’t just moms, wives, cooks, cleaners, chauffeurs, women who work. We are moms, wives, cooks, cleaners, chauffeurs, women who work, physical therapists, speech therapists, occupational therapists, teachers, researchers, nurses, coaches, and cheerleaders. Whew.
10. Because we work overtime every single day.
11. Because we also worry overtime, but we work it through. Or we eat chocolate or Pirate's Booty or gourmet cheese, which aren't reimbursable by insurance as mental-health necessities but should be.
12. Because we are more selfless than other moms. Our kids need us more.
13. Because we give our kids with special needs endless love, and then we still have so much love left for our other kids, our husbands, our family. And our hairstylist, of course.
14. Because we inspire one another in this crazy blogosphere every single day.
15. Because we understand our kids better than anyone else—even if they can’t talk, even if they can’t gesture, even if they can't look us in the eye. We know. We just know.
16. Because we never stop pushing for our kids.
17. Because we never stop hoping for them, either.
18. Because just when it seems like things are going OK, they're suddenly not OK, but we deal. Somehow, we always deal, even when it seems like our heads or hearts might explode.
19. Because when we look at our kids we just see great kids. Not "kids with cerebral palsy/autism/Down syndrome/developmental delays/whatever label."
20. Because, well, you tell me.