I don't even know how many weeks it has been... maybe closer to a month, but I stopped this obsessive relationship I had with the scale. I just decided one day to stop. That very day, I was happier. No scale was going to determine how I felt about myself.
I'm pretty damn proud of myself for breaking this cycle. It was self destructive. I decided that I am better off gauging how I feel/look rather than by reading a number. I'm by no means textbook anyways. My body has too many conditions that work against me. It took awhile to get over the mentality of "giving up" because that wasn't it at all. In fact, I hit my goal and guess what.... I still didn't find what I was looking for. No surprise there now, is it?
After all, maybe that was the very thing I was looking for. To not to look for the answer out there, but to look within.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
WIW
Hey look! It's December 1st... already? My kids are super excited. They ask every morning, "Is it Christmas yet?!!" and if there is snow, they think it is surely Christmas. :)
I'm glad it is snowing now, because I was getting tired of cold rain. Nothing is worse than cold rain.
About a week and a half ago I picked up the house and it looked super clean. I've been keeping up on cleaning up as the day progresses and I'm proud to say the house is still clean. I could have someone walk in my house and not be embarrassed. Not having the clutter around has helped keep my head clear too. I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders.
I had to look back on the last time I weighed... It was 159.5 and that was October 20th. I'm proud to say I've hit my 1st goal weight... 155! I've lost 18 pounds and I feel amazing. :)
I changed a few things regarding diet and exercise. I had to keep a pretty high daily calorie count because of how intense P90X is. I wanted to cut calories so I could see my numbers drop. With dropping my calories I didn't have the energy to get through the full 1 hr to 1 hr 15 minutes of P90X. So, I decided to keep doing P90X, but not do a full video. I don't want to lose any muscle that I did gain. This new plan is working out really well. I am going to do this for awhile and see where I end up. I know I'll get through the true 90 day P90X program, but right now is not the right time.
Cooper is doing really well in school. Maddy is loving preschool. Craig is working less. We have all been healthy and happy. I really couldn't ask for more. <3
I'm glad it is snowing now, because I was getting tired of cold rain. Nothing is worse than cold rain.
About a week and a half ago I picked up the house and it looked super clean. I've been keeping up on cleaning up as the day progresses and I'm proud to say the house is still clean. I could have someone walk in my house and not be embarrassed. Not having the clutter around has helped keep my head clear too. I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders.
I had to look back on the last time I weighed... It was 159.5 and that was October 20th. I'm proud to say I've hit my 1st goal weight... 155! I've lost 18 pounds and I feel amazing. :)
I changed a few things regarding diet and exercise. I had to keep a pretty high daily calorie count because of how intense P90X is. I wanted to cut calories so I could see my numbers drop. With dropping my calories I didn't have the energy to get through the full 1 hr to 1 hr 15 minutes of P90X. So, I decided to keep doing P90X, but not do a full video. I don't want to lose any muscle that I did gain. This new plan is working out really well. I am going to do this for awhile and see where I end up. I know I'll get through the true 90 day P90X program, but right now is not the right time.
Cooper is doing really well in school. Maddy is loving preschool. Craig is working less. We have all been healthy and happy. I really couldn't ask for more. <3
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