Ooommph

did you hear that... that was me... falling off the wagon.

On another note...

My sleep medicines ultimately failed.  Suck.  I was so hopeful.  The Ambien worked for awhile and then I would get sleepier and sleepier and my sleep would become lighter as well.  So then the doctor switched me to Lunesta and I slept worse on that even though the daytime sleepiness was a little better, it was still there.  It just wasn't working for me.  I decided on Thursday night to stop the medicines and I knew it wasn't going to be easy.  I've been on something to put me in a deeper sleep for months.

That night I couldn't fall asleep.  Took some melatonin.  Eventually went to sleep, but slept really crappy all night long.  In my insomnia, I was researching on the computer and came across 5-htp.  It helps your body produce serotonin and melatonin, which should make you calm and sleepy.  sounds good.  I bought a high dose with extended release. 

Last night it took about an hour and a half for me to fall asleep.  Once I was asleep I thought I slept soooo good for a long time, but damnit, it was only 2 hours.  *sigh*  Then, I was up ever 1.5-2 hours tossing.  I guess that is better than the previous night.

I read some stuff that it can take awhile for some herbal remedies to work.  It needs to build up in your body.  Again, I am hopeful.  I'm just tired of feeling exhausted.  Then, when I get feeling like that I don't feel like doing anything at all.  It sucks, big time.

I also busted my ankle yesterday.  I was closing my daughter's door and somehow got my ankle bone in the way.  I fell to the ground.  Damn, it hurts.  I probably bruised the bone, maybe even chipped it.  It's red and inflamed.  The autism 5k is next Saturday.  At this point, my goal is to walk it.  I'm a little bummed, but what matters is that I am going to do it... hopefully with minimal pain.

My post was all pretty crappy things.  So, on a more positive note, I had a fun week with my sister in-law visiting.  I also went out to dinner and drinks with a few friends tonight.  Cooper has been coming up with some great sentences lately that really make me stop in awe.  My daughter has been a rockstar with going to preschool and different child cares (the gym and autism society's during a meeting).  She is getting so big.  She used to cry and cry and now she'll wave and walk away.  I love it because it allows me to be more social and get some gym time in.  It allows her to be more social too.  Score.  :)

Going to go wind down... hopefully sleep soon....